words are just so hard sometimes

So i know that this may sound a little nerdy but i have been thinking a lot lately about words...you know like communication, the way in which we as human beings express ourselves....before i tried to learn another language i took great pride in trying to speak as though i was very intelligent....now when i try to speak this new language i can't get through a whole sentence without making a mistake...talk about humility...but the most frustrating part is not being able to communicate what i came here to tell people about....i want to be able to tell them about Jesus and what he means to me and what he has done in my life....but i am not able to do this quite yet...which has made me pray a lot more often, but still is frustrating...i was reading the story of the tower of babel the other day and thinking God it would be a lot easier if we all spoke the same language but then i thought would i still be motivated to come over and share the good news with people or would it make me more lazy than i already am?

we are called to be in the world but not of the world...i have heard this phrase so many times but recently i have been trying to digest it's meaning...sometimes i use the excuse that i need to do these things to understand people more, to really get to know them...that is all a lie...i do these things because my carnal fleshly side wins out most times over my spiritual side...also because when i do make the wrong choice the consequences are not immediate and sometimes i don't feel them at all...when did i become so numb to grieving the spirit of the Lord? Can i really see a difference in the way i live my life from the way a non-christian lives theirs? have i tried so hard to fit in and not stand out that i have become invisible?

As i have been here in brazil now for about 7 months i have noticed some things that they do quite different from the US of A...one that has been on my mind recently though is about family..back home it is completely normal for extended family to go months at a time without speaking to each other whether you live in different cities or even different states...it is ok to only see family at holidays and that is usually when we are forced...here though it is normal for children to live with their parents until they are married and if a grandparent needs more help then they just move in, or if and aunt or uncle needs help raising their kids they move in too...there is always time for family and there is always space...at first i though this to be weird but now i look at the way we do this back home and i think maybe we are the ones who have it wrong.....the Bible tells us to love our family...to out do one another in showing honor...i think we could learn a thing or two from the brazilians..