quiet, steady perseverance

Patience: an ability or willingness to suppress restlessness or annoyance when confronted with delay......

a quiet, steady perseverance...

normally when people return from a trip abroad the first thing they say in comparison to the USA is how much more slowly things moved in whatever country they visited...this is true in Brazil as well...i have to ride the bus most days if i don't want to use my God-given mode of transportation(feet)...and there is no schedule for these buses...you just sit and wait...which means you must carve out a pretty good chunk of time if you want to go anywhere...

this is not the only way that God is teaching me patience right now....details about my job assignment seem to change every week....when i will be training...who it will be with....what i am supposed to do with the time in between....things at home change just as often as well...my friends are moving on with their lives as well....some getting married...some having babies...some graduating college and starting new careers.....all of which i get to watch from a distance...wishing them good luck through messages on facebook...

things with my own family change constantly as well....sometimes things are good and sometimes they get pretty bad....now is one of those times when things are bad....and for the first time in my life the phrase "God is in control" has taken on a whole new meaning.....these are no longer just words....this is what i cling to....it is one thing to willingly give up control of a situation....it is quite another when that has been taken from you....control is a funny thing you know...i thin we trick ourselves into thinking that we have it but in reality we never did....you can't say God is in control but then try to conduct your life all on your own....

Even though i don't understand what all this waiting has been for...or why things with my family are what they are....or why i am having to miss out on all these events in my friend's lives...but i know in the end God will get the glory....i am reminded constantly of the verse in Isaiah that talks about God's thoughts and ways being higher than ours....and even if i had the answers to all the Why's in my life...would it really make things any better....

I want it to be said of me that i had a' quiet, steady perseverance' through this trial