ya se fue la sequía

 i started packing up a little bit this past sunday and i´ll be home in 17 days. i´ve clearly done a terrible job of updating, but in 3 weeks i´ll be back with a year´s worth of stories to tell and a fiancé by my side.

yesterday i was reading in dueteronomy 28 where moses is relaying to the israelites what will be the effect of either their obedience or their disobedience in the land of canaan. how timely a conviction so heavy when the temptation to allow my heart and mind to disobediently board my plane 2 and 1/2 weeks too early comes over me like a house- because as my time in honduras winds down, my attention span shortens and wanders prematurely to my own personal promised land. 
i know that simply coming here last august did not constitute my obedience in this season of my life- but that since then and until june 8, it has taken and will continue to require a day by day, minute by minute denial of my selfish ambitions... a sincere submission to the God of my life... a quiet patience... hands ready for the war i´m engaged in (yes, it´s a fight)... a focused mind... a willing spirit... and a heart full of rejoicing. my time remaining here is so short but there´s still obedience to be lived out- and the outcome will be tremendous. however, my response to this calling will be the difference between the blessings and the curses spoken of to these people who for 40 years experienced the unparalleled provison of God Almighty... but hardly even recognized it. 
for all of my life i just wanna "faithfully obey the voice of the Lord... with joyfullness of heart... and be overtaken by His blessings..." rather than to "serve those who God sends against me in nakedness, with hunger and thirst, and be lacking in everything." i want a heart to understand, eyes to see, and ears to hear... not unrest, a trembling heart, failing eyes, or a languishing soul. oh, to be set high above the nations of the earth, and to be established unto Him as HOLY...

i felt rain yesterday for the first time since october. good things come to those who wait, really good things...